Sometimes I feel like I just don't know a single thing about life, all I ever do is trying to find little pieces of a huge jigsaw puzzle to make it whole. I don't know how long it'll take me to figure out what I'm actually going for. I may never understand what all this jigsaw puzzle is about, because that day I complete it,I might just die. So instead, I'm just trying to find what I'm after, what this puzzle resembles. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Is it resembling a huge dinosaur ripping trees and causing havoc in the world? Is it just resembling a soft cotton candy in a spring afternoon? Is it merely just my reflection? Whatever it is, I just want to figure it out. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I want to tell this to Kaira, maybe she'll understand. Because she always does. She feels like an invader in Earth, she just doesn't belong in the protocols and stereotypes people have set here. She has been breaking them before she even knew rules can be broken though. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I just stare at my blurred hazy black reflection on my mobile screen, searching for her number. Trying to remember the last time I've talked to her, it's been months, maybe more than a year I can't exactly recall because I've been talking to her in my mind all these times I've been almost suffocated to loneliness. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I open the chat window only to reminisce that I've shooed her away from my life, probably one of breakdowns. I cannot exactly remember. But looking at the last text I've sent her⁣⁣ "Get the hell out of my life"⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I'm doubting my choice of messaging her. Maybe she'll snap at me for making her leave, or maybe she will just ignore me like I don't even exist. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Still at night like this I feel this overwhelming urge to connect to Kaira, and I can't just write her notes in my journal I've got to tell her,ask her. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ "How are you?" I type and send it immediately before even letting my brain talk myself out of it. I know maybe she'll break my heart by not replying me, or maybe she'll break my heart by replying something cold, extremely cold like cutting through my veins in a frosty night. But whatever it is, I'm ready to risk my heart again. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ "Is everything okay with you Abhi?"⁣⁣ . ✍️ - Subhagni (@logophile_scriptor)